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phil h

I typed up my letter of resignation as a suffer of clusterheadaches and put it in the nuns pray request box today ............ I wonder if it may work ..... unfortunately at least 3-4 of nuns will know it's from me . I just thought I'd try . I told them I'm very ,very tired of this pain and don't understand God's intent here . I am not questioning God's plan , but I'm now unable to do simple healing meditations , just breathing and some physical relaxations at times ............... Now all deeper meditations only bring me pain............... Everytime I think I've found something that works a bit , the beast changes the rules ........... Or is God redirecting the pain back to me ...... Sometimes I just don't know anymore ............ Will anybody accept my resignation from this F**k lifestyle ? My BP seems pretty stable right now ... A couple days at 5-6 hits k8's and lower... then today....BP is good , 10 hits .. 5 really bad ones.....WTF.... Hopefully this high cycle ends soon........... Ike you are right this weather crap is out to get all of us ........... by the way Hurricane Ike will undoubtably dump lots of rain up here 4-5 days after land fall down south ............... Everyone of these hurricanes that hit down south send rain systems days later up the east coast.............. All storms approaching me from the west , I get a 1-2 hour warning from Sherri on..................... I'm ready to start checking out someother climates to live in and a change in profession ...... Perhaps I could handle a chair,umbrella and towel concession on some island somewhere ..... The stress level would seem none existent....... Or perhaps run a Tiki bar on the beach.......................... I need some kind of change ... either feeling better or a dramatic change in location and lifestyle ..... I'll give it until the 1st of the year ......... and in the meantime dream/plan my escape ............ :smt108 F**k phil
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Em · Posted: Fri Sep 12, 2008 10:08 am Post subject:

Phil,

I love the idea as resigning as a cluster head. As long as you promise to still check in and help the rest of us. I'll pray it works for you.

If you're opening a Tiki bar, I'd make a great barmaid! I've so often thought about the same - going to a better climate. But the beast would only change his mind about the weather trigger and it would become... I don't know, sand or sea water or coconut juice and then we'd have to come home.

As hard as it is, stay strong Phil. You can win this fight. You do every day. We're in your corner backing you up.

Em
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phil h · Posted: Fri Sep 12, 2008 3:36 pm Post subject:

Your on Em . It will be a tiki bar with a chair,umbrella and towel concession . You can be a full partner and cook , mix drinks or sit in the the sun ...... I'm thinking a self service bar and grill . We can sit in lounge chairs and collect the money..... or hire someone for that tedious work .......... I see myself with my feet in the sand or water at all times ..... I think perhaps a CH last resort or new lease on life ..... Not low stress , I'd rather have no stress . Just watching the sea , clouds , sailboats and such will be enough stimulation for me . Hell I should start looking for a small island to buy and take over as cluster island .......

I could resign myself and my CH's to that.........

CF Phil
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"Suddenly a huge phantom bird sank three talons of its angry claws deeply into my head and face and tried to lift me. No warnings, no preliminary signs. Just wham! A massive, killing pain came over my right eye. " Frank Capra

Em · Posted: Fri Sep 12, 2008 4:18 pm Post subject:

Sounds perfect! I'm happy to cook and mix drinks. I'm even happy to take the towels home at the end of the day and stick 'em in the washing machine, ready for the next day. A few pina coladas and some locals to tell us the island gossip. Lots of people watching and boat spotting. I'm almost there...

No stress is the motto. I'd have to have a stack of good books to read as I laid on the beach listening to the sea and the people.

I think this is my new happy thought to chase those shadows away.

Em
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Em · Posted: Fri Sep 12, 2008 4:35 pm Post subject:

PHIL & EM'S TIKI BAR

ALL WELCOME!

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phil h · Posted: Sun Sep 14, 2008 12:21 am Post subject:

Perfect........... And is that building in the backround The Circuit's Bed and Breakfast.......... alongside the craft store the other Cher's run ? I believe the spa and meditation huts are just betond that as well ...........

The many talents of us CHer's , as well as our desire for rest , relaxation and reduced stress would make this a peaceful island , with the exception of the occasional screams of pain.............

At least we are all used to that , but think of all the understanding and support we'd have in one place................ We will of course need a 40 or 50 ft sailboat for adventure and further relaxation ............. Now I estimate we need a winning lottery ticket to start things rolling ........... Or one of us to write a few best selling novels ................... I must give this more thought........ I do think better sitting with my feet in the ocean and with no concept of dates or season............

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"Suddenly a huge phantom bird sank three talons of its angry claws deeply into my head and face and tried to lift me. No warnings, no preliminary signs. Just wham! A massive, killing pain came over my right eye. " Frank Capra

Em · Posted: Sun Sep 14, 2008 10:22 am Post subject:

Dotted around our island are o2 bars - like emergency telephones, where folks can go into a little dark booth and help themselves if they need it. No running to a car/to the bedroom/to a dark spot. And they'll be comfy ones, with plenty of soft surfaces to bang your head on.

This just sounds more and more appealing!
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Ike · Posted: Sun Sep 14, 2008 11:43 am Post subject:

Phil im really pissed off your getting hit like you are its just so unfair ! never hear of a mass murderer having ch or anything it just sucks, i really hope the nuns accept your request ! but while we are all suffering lets get this island thing going ! it put a smile on my face just to imagine that for a few mins ! sounds like a great plan !
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phil h · Posted: Sun Sep 14, 2008 2:28 pm Post subject:

Maybe we do need our own island ...... I even wonder if some grant or research $ might be available .................. I'm beginning to research this in earnest now ................ You know whats sad ...... I'm waiting on the control group at Harvard to begin their psilicibin control group .......... the hold up is they need 150,000 to start . they have raised 60,000 in 3 yrs ................................... Let's form a clusterhead nation of our own ...... then i can use mushrooms w/o losing my license ............. I will begin seeking ways to make this a reality ..... it's sure better than waiting on a cure .............

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"Suddenly a huge phantom bird sank three talons of its angry claws deeply into my head and face and tried to lift me. No warnings, no preliminary signs. Just wham! A massive, killing pain came over my right eye. " Frank Capra