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phil h · Posted: Wed Oct 28, 2009 8:11 pm Post subject: I may seem like a nice guy

But at times I am mean to the ones I love . It has been brought to my attention that I'm a real bastard at times . I accept this as true , as I've heard it from the one's I love from time to time and over time . If at times I'm a real prick , confront me on it . It could come out here , for I love all of you . If you are wondering if you missed something Ike , you didn't . I'm unkind to people I love some at times . I apologize to anyone my anger touches . Just a pay ahead ! Family is where this is likely to come out . This is a family . Watch out for my inner bastard .

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Ike · Posted: Wed Oct 28, 2009 10:06 pm Post subject:

Ok Im ready for it !? We all do it at times, I doubt you'd upset me and if you did id say so !
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phil h · Posted: Thu Oct 29, 2009 4:12 am Post subject:

My son told me I was mean as a snake today . Of course it was after I forked over 450 in repairs he didn't have the money for . I got another , I'll catch you after I get paid AGAIN . Parenting can be a bitch . When we showed up to pick up his car and he announced he had no $ . I paid , but became as mean as a snake . I had to pick my car for 350 today . Not a good car day !

:smt108 I bit off a few other heads today !

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"Suddenly a huge phantom bird sank three talons of its angry claws deeply into my head and face and tried to lift me. No warnings, no preliminary signs. Just wham! A massive, killing pain came over my right eye. " Frank Capra

phil h · Posted: Thu Oct 29, 2009 10:27 am Post subject:

No one has called me mean in hours . Thank God the dogs don't talk . They are the only one's I've run into these past 8 hours . So I think I'm good right now !

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"Suddenly a huge phantom bird sank three talons of its angry claws deeply into my head and face and tried to lift me. No warnings, no preliminary signs. Just wham! A massive, killing pain came over my right eye. " Frank Capra

Ike · Posted: Thu Oct 29, 2009 12:26 pm Post subject:

Your good in my eyes Phil,
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Sherri · Posted: Thu Oct 29, 2009 12:27 pm Post subject:

Check yourself before you wreck yourself....sometimes you can't take things back.

Just being crabby...well, who isnt at times? Nasty is an entire different thing...and relentless about it.

When you feel that way, that is one time I suggest you isolate for awhile. Go get some coffee, listen to some hard core music...whatever.

Words do matter. Alot.
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phil h · Posted: Fri Oct 30, 2009 12:15 am Post subject:

Sorry Sherri , It seems I was one a tear the other day and yelled at , shamed and or was just plain mean to all I came in contact with over a 24 hour period . Sorry . You are right......words hurt worse than a knife sometimes. And as I've always told you ; if you don't judge , shame or react out of anger .... you usually have nothing to apologize for .. I could not heed my own advice..........I was raging , shaming and displacing my frustration and anger at everyone who crossed my path for a period of time . Rather than responding to people in conversations , I was reacting to all . I am guilty of a grave relapse in judgement and sober behaviors . I apologize to anyone who's feelings I hurt or who's patience I severely tested ........................I was a bad , sick ragaholic for a day . I will try to keep myself from any repeat lapses .......... please feel free to tell me if I seem of the beam . I love you all. I may in fact be the black sheep of the family....... I certainly am when my character defects override my intellect . We in AA call that a dry drunk ! Forgive my lapse in sober behavior !

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"Suddenly a huge phantom bird sank three talons of its angry claws deeply into my head and face and tried to lift me. No warnings, no preliminary signs. Just wham! A massive, killing pain came over my right eye. " Frank Capra

Sherri · Posted: Fri Oct 30, 2009 6:37 am Post subject:

It's over....forget it. I was getting it from every angle and I had no tolerance left.

Shame was a way of life for me growing up, then I went on to go out with guys that did the same thing....what a cliche.

I just can't tolerate when people do it anymore....I can become physical, and my razor sharp tongue can come out. I try very, very hard to ignore it...

But, if Im tired, beaten down....it becomes difficult. I usually just walk away now.

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Ike · Posted: Fri Oct 30, 2009 3:31 pm Post subject:

Sounds like any of us when in pain and lack of sleep ... I can be a real arse too .. And it times i really am and only at the ones i care about the most
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Sherri · Posted: Fri Oct 30, 2009 3:49 pm Post subject:

Agreed...because we know we can. And we'll still love them, and they'll love us. Thank God.
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phil h · Posted: Fri Oct 30, 2009 4:27 pm Post subject:

Help me before I rage agaain . When the full moon comes , I must be chained up in the basement . Oh , the animal I've become ! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jbHn1Pgj6Zk&feature=related
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"Suddenly a huge phantom bird sank three talons of its angry claws deeply into my head and face and tried to lift me. No warnings, no preliminary signs. Just wham! A massive, killing pain came over my right eye. " Frank Capra

Sherri · Posted: Fri Oct 30, 2009 4:49 pm Post subject:

ME TOO PHIL...Im always irritable when there's a full moon...before I even realize the moon is full...

It looks beautiful, but makes me not so nice. And things do happen. When I worked in the Emergency room, there were alot more violent "accidents" than usual, and it was alot busier.

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"Great spirits have always encountered VIOLENT opposition from the MEDIOCRITIES." -Einstein.